Matt and I are going to London in June! We’ll be there for six days.
This is a really big deal for us for a few reasons.
I’ve been to London twice before, but it’s been more than 13 years since I last visited. I haven’t been overseas since.
As for Matt, he’s never been to Europe. Except for two trips to Montreal in the past couple of years, he’s never even been out of the United States. A big, big part of the excitement for me will be accompanying Matt on his first trip overseas.
Matt left all the planning to me because I have more travel experience. I was worried, but I am so proud of myself for planning this trip. I know, it really doesn’t take much skill to click on a mouse and type on a keyboard. But I had to get over some psychological barriers – committing to spending the money and choosing where to go.
I’ve written about my travel hang-ups before. Traveling is expensive (and Europe is particularly expensive for Americans these days), and a trip is only for a finite amount of time. But I love London. There are other places in Europe I’d like to see – places I’ve never been to before – but for some reason I feel a need to go back to London first. And I feel like London would be a great first overseas trip for Matt, especially since he’s an Anglophile. I think once we do this trip, we’ll be ready to visit other places.
So we’ll spend almost a week in London. We’ll probably take one or two day trips while we’re there, maybe to Stonehenge and/or someplace else. I’m so excited.
I’m also feeling anxious. I felt anxious as soon as I clicked on the final button and committed us to the trip. What if it’s not money well spent? What if we don’t have enough time? What if the hotel sucks? Should I have booked a trip somewhere else instead, somewhere completely new to both of us? But according to various online reviews, the hotel should be fine, and we’ll have plenty of time to do plenty of things, and I have money for a trip, and there are plenty of things I haven’t seen in London, I mean it’s LONDON, after all, and we can take a trip somewhere else next time.
Part of my anxiety, to be totally pessimistic and bizarre, arises from knowing that I’ll feel sad once we return. Rather than going on a great trip and feeling a big letdown upon returning home and having to go back to work, part of me wants to avoid that emotional rollercoaster in the first place. Why go away when, in the end, you’ll just have to come back? Better not to go at all than experience the sadness of a trip ending.
Weird, no? I think that’s really the key to my travel anxiety. But I’ve nipped it, and we’ve planned a trip, and it will be great.
I can’t wait.