I want to revitalize this blog somehow. Even though blogging the way I do it seems to be passé, and even though I haven’t been blogging as often as I used to, I still like having it available as an outlet. I think it needs a redesign — or at least a new theme template. The links to the previous and next posts at the top of each individual blog post have not worked in several years and seem to be unfixable. A new theme would probably fix that.
I’ve been seeing my new therapist for about three months. It’s been good so far. I have felt an increased urgency in my therapy sessions, although that’s not because I’m seeing a new therapist, but rather that’s why I decided to see a new therapist. I am tired of being an unhappy person, and I am tired of all the stagnation in my life. I wasn’t getting anywhere with my old therapist anymore; I was just talking about the same stuff over and over. So I wanted to start working with someone new.
My new therapist is more interactive, more willing to call me out on my circular thinking.
One thing he suggested is that instead of trying to fix everything at the same time, I try to focus on one thing at a time. So I’ve decided to start with my career. Unfortunately, I have no idea where to start. I have never known what I wanted to do with my life. It would be one thing if I knew what I wanted to do, because then I could figure out how to get there. But I have no idea what I want to do.
Still, I seem to be out of the rut I was in with my previous therapist. It’s not necessarily translating into any life changes yet, but it’s only been three months. I saw my previous therapist for 11 years. I guess I need to be patient.
But I’m 38 years old and I’m not getting any younger.